My Hope is in the Lord

O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar.
You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold O Lord, You know it all.
You have enclosed me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.

Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
Even there your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,
And the light around me will be night,"
Even the darkness is not dark to You,
And the night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are alike to You.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
And see if there be any hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.

Psalm 139:1-12, 23-24

I have good news to share!

On Friday, Brian and I had decided to finish our Snowflakes application and turn in it, since Dr. K has not been very good about returning our calls since April. (She works for the fertility clinic and was supposed to look for embryos for us.) Well, my cell phone rang on Friday morning. I didn't pick it up and when I later checked the voicemail, it was Dr. K. I tried to call her back 3 times onFriday, but she wasn't there. So that put the Snowflakes application on hold 'til we talked to her. She returned my call on SATURDAY. Can you believe it? This doctor never calls me and she called me on Saturday.

She has three embryos in her possession for us! Three babies that belong to us! What a precious, precious gift. What a marvelous blessing from God! Three little embryos (blastocysts) 5 days old. My heart overflows with peace and thanksgiving. What a merciful and gracious God we serve. I don't deserve this blessing.

It will take at least two months-- possibly three before they try the transfer. I'll be going to the doctor's office a lot and taking all kinds of hormones. The doctor is supposed to call today and let me know when to come in and get started. Please pray for us. Pray for the souls of these three tiny ones. Pray that they will all survive and that the Lord will help us trust completely in Him, no matter what happens. There is a good possibility that we will lose all three. That would be extremely painful, but I will not regret giving these babies a chance to live. I'm so thankful that God is in control of all the details. Please pray that I will trust Him completely and not be anxious. Thank you so much for your prayers!