Update

I am feeling very discouraged today. I had my 39 week doctor's appointment yesterday and my cervix is still tight and closed and the baby is still high, despite his large size, the contractions I've been getting for the past several weeks, and the cervix ripening techniques the doctor asked us to try. Iain is not supposed to go past his due date for medical reasons, and the chances of an induction being sucessful under these circumstances are at best like 30%. So Brian and I feel that with that kind of probability, it makes more sense just to schedule the c-section. I go again to the doctor's tomorrow to see if there is any change. If not, we'll be having the surgery next week. I can't tell you how discouraged I am about this. Why isn't my body doing what it is supposed to do? I really, really didn't want to have this surgery because of all the scarring problems I've had in the past. I like my doctor and I trust him. I feel like he has been very reasonable and not at all in a rush to deliver this baby, so I believe him when he says that Iain needs to be born. I just wish it wasn't going this way.